It seems all the people you once believed were by your side doing good things with their lives just turn into monsters. Why would friends turn into monsters? You think your helping and all are ONE and then it all goes horribly wrong. It's all about being human but with that comes the foibles of the human being. The Holy Bible speaks of how mankind truend tail on the lord and few survived well it's much like that in life. when you are young there are people all around and as you grow up they fall to the wayside turning away from the ONE. Well I once read something about friends, how there are friends that stay with you and there are friends that come and go and there are friends who are "transitional". In other words at the time they were your friend they made real sense but as life changes they move on to pastures new like you do and perhaps there are different flowers growing but at least you once knew the same pasture and memories are good to have!!
I wonder who to trust these days. After all that happened round here it became a bit like that you never knew who was going to turn ogre next. Why does it happen? I suppose it is the fragility of life just that which we were protecting that we all need to respect. Our souls, our minds and our bodies are all sacred and delicate and need nurture and nourishing to grow. What feeds our souls is prayer and the like but by eating healthy soul food you can help that be true in all worlds.
I hope you find friends along the way and I hope this fills your mind with happy memories of life.